Want.

I want one more night.
I want to sleep next to you.
I want to feel your heartbeat.
I want your head on my chest and my arms around you.
I want to feel your skin against mine.
I want to to feel your cute, soft lips.
I want to kiss you on your forehead.
I want to lock your hand to mine.
I want to stare you, and take note of all the small details.
I want to cling on you like a koala bear, and hug you tightly like a big bear.
I want you, all by my side.
I really miss you, badly. </3!

Lord, I need you.

Lord I Need You

By Ron Hamilton

Sometimes when life seems gentle and blessings flood my way,
I turn my gaze away from You and soon forget to pray.
But when the sky grows darker and courage turns to fear,
My anxious voice cries upward with words you long to hear.

Lord, I need You when the sea of life is calm. 
O Lord, I need You when the wind is blowing strong. 
Whether trials come or cease, keep me always on my knees.
Lord, I need You. Lord I need You.

Lord, help me to remember I’m weak but You are strong.
I cannot sing apart from You, for Lord You are my song.
Although I’m prone to wander and boast in all I do;
Lord keep my eyes turned upward so I depend on You.

Lord, I need You when the sea of life is calm. 
O Lord, I need You when the wind is blowing strong. 
Whether trials come or cease, keep me always on my knees.
Lord, I need You. Lord I need You.

End.

"Everything will be fine in the end. If it's not, it means that you're not yet at the end."

My dear boy shared this with me today. It did touch my heart. -Reflects-

委屈

这些委屈，我受够了
问题永远都出在我身上
我不想再在乎这一切，因我的存在是最大的问题
如果我有选择的余地，我不会让自己有在这里生存的机会
我累了

The Frustrations.

I’m raging at the frustrating plan. The plan that I can’t understand. I’m frustrated. I can’t see why. I don’t understand. And I can’t get what I want. I’m frustrated because it hurts so much feeling so far apart from him, being lonely. Crying like there’s no tomorrow and no one cares. 
It’s frustrating how people don’t understand, how people can’t see and feel what’s going on in you. 
I’m just gonna give up. I just can’t let go despite being tired. I can’t because I want it, it’s tiring, it hurts but I’m still holding onto him. I don’t know why. Knowing that I will only bring troubles and something like that, I’m not good enough, I have to be selfish and hold onto him so tightly. 
It’s hurting so badly, I just want to kill myself.

我的心都碎了，你不知道

我的心都碎了，你不知道
我的心都碎了，你不知道
我的心都碎了，你不知道
我的心都碎了，你不知道
我的心都碎了，你不知道
我的心都碎了，你不知道
我的心都碎了，你不知道
我的心都碎了，你不知道
我的心都碎了，你不知道
你不知道

No one seems to understand. It's so hard to fight, and he just don't seems to get it. He gets so frustrated because he can't understand why I am feeling this way. It's so hard to express myself. No one understand.s

Sorry. ):

"我道歉，不是因为我承认我的错而你没错。我道歉，是因为我在乎，在乎我们之间的感情 "