Bullied.

Just the end of the first school term, I'm wishing I'm graduating. I just came back from L.I.A camp. It was a torture. I had fever up to 38.9 degrees, which can be a not too bad things because I manage to escape from those scary evil physical trainings during the camp. But know what? More troubles after the camp.

Karina and Eugenia got sort of jealous because I got into the interview for excos. They started cursing all over facebook and explaining logic to them doesn't seem to work. Ah well, that's the reasons why I have minimal female friends. It hurts tho. It hurts to know that I've no friends. They are like the two 'head' of the class and I know things will turn out badly when I return to class. They are using hurtful words and just what have I done wrongly?

Hi, I'm forever alone.

Taking a lil' risk

Sek asked to patch back today. I took a little risk and accepted. I don't see the light at the end of the tunnel, frankly. I don't even know why I accepted, all I know is I need someone who can hug me and be there for me.

Maybe, I should be truthful to myself. I know right inside my heart, I have someone else inside. He seems to be avoiding me. He talks to me once in a while, I tried so hard to keep the conversation going, but he seems to have no interest. I'm afraid he might find me irritating. It seems almost impossible for us. It's hurting so badly to know that it's almost mission impossible.

I'm praying so hard Sek can help me to forget and ease the pain. Am i being a bitch over here?

Annoyed

Just my luck. what an irritating form teacher I have. I was on MC yesterday and my last MC before this was last week. What can I do with a screwed up body? I didn't produce an official Medical Certificate from the doctor because the last time I went to the doctor was just last week. It's so expensive to see a doctor and why can't I just eat the leftover medications? My mother did write a letter to acknowledge that I didn't skip school without any valid reasons. How ridiculous can this teacher get. Sigh. Still have at least 10 months to bear with him.

The new beginning.

Secondary three this year.
It started off with a weird, irritating form teacher and an anal co-form teacher. Idontknow. I feel nothing positive about this new academic year. The subject combi sucks, the class sucks. I have no idea what is keeping me going.

I wasn't looking forward to this year, but I have no choice. Now that it has started, I don't want it to end. Myehh. I'm just this weird. Oh look, I always have social issues with people at my age, and this is my last year having senior in Secondary school. I've been lonely in my own cohort, I foresee myself alone for the next two years, I'll officially have no friends after this year.

Oh wait, it's just January and I'm worrying about things at the end of the year/next year.

//Kill me nao.

The Ugly World

Hmm.. I've decided to create this blog. The title itself explains. I'm rather negative and I don't know who to go to. I'm rather lonely, no one cares. I'll probably die in my own world, without anyone knowing. I guess no one will bother reading this blog, but it's just a place for me to rant and express myself. The little world of mine.