Taking a lil' risk

Sek asked to patch back today. I took a little risk and accepted. I don't see the light at the end of the tunnel, frankly. I don't even know why I accepted, all I know is I need someone who can hug me and be there for me.

Maybe, I should be truthful to myself. I know right inside my heart, I have someone else inside. He seems to be avoiding me. He talks to me once in a while, I tried so hard to keep the conversation going, but he seems to have no interest. I'm afraid he might find me irritating. It seems almost impossible for us. It's hurting so badly to know that it's almost mission impossible.

I'm praying so hard Sek can help me to forget and ease the pain. Am i being a bitch over here?

Annoyed

Just my luck. what an irritating form teacher I have. I was on MC yesterday and my last MC before this was last week. What can I do with a screwed up body? I didn't produce an official Medical Certificate from the doctor because the last time I went to the doctor was just last week. It's so expensive to see a doctor and why can't I just eat the leftover medications? My mother did write a letter to acknowledge that I didn't skip school without any valid reasons. How ridiculous can this teacher get. Sigh. Still have at least 10 months to bear with him.