End.

"Everything will be fine in the end. If it's not, it means that you're not yet at the end."

My dear boy shared this with me today. It did touch my heart. -Reflects-

委屈

这些委屈，我受够了
问题永远都出在我身上
我不想再在乎这一切，因我的存在是最大的问题
如果我有选择的余地，我不会让自己有在这里生存的机会
我累了

The Frustrations.

I’m raging at the frustrating plan. The plan that I can’t understand. I’m frustrated. I can’t see why. I don’t understand. And I can’t get what I want. I’m frustrated because it hurts so much feeling so far apart from him, being lonely. Crying like there’s no tomorrow and no one cares. 
It’s frustrating how people don’t understand, how people can’t see and feel what’s going on in you. 
I’m just gonna give up. I just can’t let go despite being tired. I can’t because I want it, it’s tiring, it hurts but I’m still holding onto him. I don’t know why. Knowing that I will only bring troubles and something like that, I’m not good enough, I have to be selfish and hold onto him so tightly. 
It’s hurting so badly, I just want to kill myself.

我的心都碎了，你不知道

我的心都碎了，你不知道
我的心都碎了，你不知道
我的心都碎了，你不知道
我的心都碎了，你不知道
我的心都碎了，你不知道
我的心都碎了，你不知道
我的心都碎了，你不知道
我的心都碎了，你不知道
我的心都碎了，你不知道
你不知道

No one seems to understand. It's so hard to fight, and he just don't seems to get it. He gets so frustrated because he can't understand why I am feeling this way. It's so hard to express myself. No one understand.s